there's so many different thing that one can be unhappy about. you sort the unhappy moments that you had yesterday and today? a new one just surfaces. den again, it just prove my point right, that couples do quarrel/feel affected? OFTEN. i mean why wouldnt one be? you practically love the person, probably the first person you think every morning.

i'm definitely not unhappy about not being able to meet c for like? weeks?, for school and for his holiday, i mean everyone needs their space (i could use it for my studies anyway). but it just bothers me that c is neglecting his studies for his friend and i have NO POSITION to say anything. no position because i've never lost a friend like he did. now i know why parents always react weirdly towards things we THINK its ok to do, its because we look at things in a different way, where we want the best out of them? (ok, maybe that didnt sound right). but i clearly remember when slut face was depressed over lester, AND IT WAS CLEARLY his fault for being such a jerk, i said i would find him to chop his dick off and go to jail. hello? if i think back, its dumb. but at that time, i was sad, everything and all i wanted was to find slut face. (dedicted to c: you said i was foolish, why my thinking like that?, that im not even thinking straight. sadly, it happened to you, and you said this "even if i have to take year 1, i wouldnt mind."). seriously, everyone has their own thinking, i mean what if slutface was to kill herself because no one was there for her?, im sure to be damn guilty. everyone has been thru the shityest time of their life, but (to me) at the end of the day its ourselves that we need to pull ourselves back tgt. a friend can only help you to pass time, to replace the emptiness (seriously, i don't believe that by spending time with your friend, you will gradually forget someone you love).

seriously, i have NO POSITION TO SAY any of this, none. but if nothing happens to him and our rs goes down the drain, i will forever remember this. whatever, i miss you. and i dont want teary nights.