everything i do something for him, or together with him. There's a tendency for either one of us to make a mistake. i feel fucking sick. sick of myself. fucking sick. knn shop online also got a fucking problem. maybe thats why i don't? wtf i must either buck up, or just stop trying so hard. FUCK YOU.

every now and then, the only thing i think about is love. its as though i live to feel love and love someone. although it only marks the 6th month for us, and looking back at the memories we shared, it definitely feels like a long way back. how we met, and how we offically started hanging out together, how he thought of me the first time we met. in case, you're curious.

c(in his dirt brain) "she think she diva ah". all i did was giving extra comment about a girl.

i'm still digging out how we started hanging out for the 2nd time.

love, j

first, i'm amazed this year. every male actors walking down the fake "red carpet" sure do look stunning. they got me into watching the whole show! among all, i think i would still choose elvin ng over everyone else, ok maybe abit of pierre png. and charlie just have to comment of things i like, i hang out with, i do, and etc!

c: wtf he is your fav actor?!?!
c: wtf is wrong with you bb
c: he is not even an actor
me: cause he is good looking
c: he is a furniture that looks good on tv

yah, he says and criticise on everything i like.


so i just came back from the doctor who actually poke a hole on my finger and squeezed the pus out, WHICH IM SO FUCKING PISSED ABOUT. i was screaming, and making a fuse. but wtf! the fucking finger looks like it going back to where it looked like before. i must fucking learn 100000 lesson to the day i die i swear, that will be the day whereby i would stop making anymore mistakes. kk i need to go and rest, show u the pictures of my finger.

day 2, the pus only like? small patch.

day 3, my finger manage to make me feel feverish. the pus manage to flood quite a big part.

What if..... The person you love, hasn't gotten over his/her ex. In another words, still in love with his/her past.
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it's weird how others get advise from me about their r/s when mine isn't like perfect? well, i aint saying that me and c are on bad terms, in fact, we are on very good terms right now=). its just the things i tell others like "you know getting back together isnt easy and that so many things had already happened between you both, when you finally manage to mend things up, shouldn't you at least try not to quarrel or make things difficult for each other?." yah i know. c and i do have our usual spat, normally things don't turn out to what i(we) expect. all in all, i believe that small usual spat between couples are just a process of being together.

i love you c.

I love his childish acts, how he bug and convinced me to get red and yellow bb housing so that it would give the ironman image to his phone.


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i know right. i know how much i hated malaysia due to my last trip. yet..... i'm going to golden mile now to check out the prices=)

but i can't stop loving genting, wiki's birthday trip i think would be batam? and vietnam in july. C is going europe on the 25th.i don't like this =((

okok gtg, blog on the wya,

ok, i'm awake at 6:55am, its obvious i couldnt resist the temptation. since i'm urber free now, i shall upload photos.


rebel and paulaner's for sammie's pre-bday









Sammie's bday at home

we're trying to act like wiki, but failed. clee one os worse!

Applebee's Sammie's birthday.

songkran at golden mile

before

after. bad camera skills. we were soaking wet from the pouring of iced water (washing the bad luck away), flowers around our necks(blessing from those who gave us) and powder on our faces (something about beauty). during that week i was pretty down at luck, so i was quite happy about water being poured on me, since it meant washing the bad luck away.

airport

wiki and i were damn tempted to fly on this very day, the only reason why we didnt was because my passport wasnt with me.

grand copthrone - it was a suite!

and zouk

my friend, dominic gan wu kong.

C delivered mac breakfast to me. Now, to eat or not to eat. Temptation. Maybe I should sleep and get well first.
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Dom said: wah I must talk to him, he put curse on you ah?
Me: gong tao?
Dom: yayayayya.
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Exhausted. Day 5
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I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Can life get any worse-r?
I'm so exhausted, tired and everything bad that you can think of. I finally decided that resting is all I need. And what was I welcome with?
Something I didn't wanna see? Something that caused me to feel so sad and afraid. Next thing I know, I was locked outside my house, even an uncle had to take a pity on me, allowing me to use him phone while I weep. Causing my mum to return home immediately. seriously, I suck.
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When you sleep, just remember that I'll be there to hug you to bed. And when you're out walking alone, remember my hands are always there to fill up the space.

I'm still trying :)
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My eye actually hurts so bad. Did I really go overboard? Its so hard to even blink, i think I did.

Suddenly I felt the last kiss goodbye.

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Golden mile is not where I wanna be now. I hate memories.
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Every single song is making me feel bad, even those hyped ones. just kill me.
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Slept at 3 going to 4 and woke up at 7. I'm great at sleeping, what has happened. This is fucking insane!!
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Malaysian should just run back home. STOP POLLUTING THIS PLACE. this is singapore. hellooo?? Stop dreaming that this is malaysia. Omg....... Tian ah!
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learnt so much about love.

i super paranoid. i gained weight, like from where?

• lying on the bed all day eating 6 oreo, or
• falling asleep right after i ate a packet of chicken rice, or
• refusing to get outta bed all day, or
• stuffing myself with countless redondo, or
• because i don't get outta bed, thats why i forgot to shit?

absurd absurd absurd. i really had this feeling that the weighing machine was a little SOT, but 2 different machine with same weight? ok, must be my eyes. AHHHH whatever im going to continue with my slacking, glee here i come.

holly cow. ok i wish i hadnt.
yeap, i did. i checked my freaking time-table, and WTF? i start school next week??????????????????? i swear if i wasnt that bored! i wouldnt have known that school starts next week. OK, NEXT WEEK! yah. like now is?????? wednesday? and i start on monday. and great. mostof the days? its full day, even SIM class last for like 3 hours, mine die die also must 6 hours?.
im not over-reacting, i just can't believe i have to go back to the life where i have to worry about when i should be at the lib, or will i be hungry at the lib if i stay till late. ok. here we go monday, 9am. i guess this holiday just doesnt feel like a holiday, im not feeling really well now.

i just saw a clip of junyang & candyce getting married, full of admirartion. its full of love, full of everything. i guess getting married at such young age always make me feel like its such a blessing.

away from those marriage thoughts. i havent been saying how my days and events were, i havent post pictures of me and charlie in malaysia, sammie's birthday. abit for now, cause i think i should head to my books, havent been reading.

applebee's and clash of the titian 3D.

so everyone knows, i refuses to watch clash of the titans. always calling it fucking titans. ended up watching it twice, yeap. 1 in 3D and 1 in 2D, guess what? there's no effing difference besides the subtitle and thats only if you read chinese.

applebee's never disappoint us, i didnt eat alot. most probably scared at the among we ordered. way tooo much.

so after dins and movies, we had LONG sweating night. just look at clee! she is in her bloody bra. we were peeing outside those estate, dancing, tummy's reviewed without noticing that there was a security guard steps away.

I hate camp, never fail to make C pissed off.
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Send right to hell once again.
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i wanna watch diary of a wimpy kid! helloo? and not eat bread again!