okay. this is like a very long ago post. probably like 4 weeks ago?. anyway this was in my LJ. but since im back here, so ive decided to paste my entry here too =))


sat 2 feb 2008

finally ive decided to blog about this.
cuase i knoe after a period of time, may it be a year or so on. memories that i had with the both of you might get a little blurry.
soon everyone will be back to what they were. and if i ever realised i haven been thinking about you both.at least i got this page to refresh my memory

days has been pretty difficult for many.its was too sudden.
though i passed my driving test, i was greeted with a terrible news soon after.

mer and fei
in my eyes, you both were like twins, when ever there is fei there is mer, and when there is mer there is fei.
though both of you have totally oppsite figures, one fat and one skinny. laughs =) still act like twins.
monday was actually the last time i saw you both. i remember we had COS test that day. i didnt study. DUH!!
i kept turning ard to ask fei for ans, he kept giving me those angry faces cause he didnt want me to share the ans with boon.
after having all the ans i quickly pass up my paper and boon was scolding me. den i went over to mer mer to get some shelter. to prevent boon!
ikea with the 5 of us. =)remmeber how fei asked what he should do for valentine's day. i suggested cookies, as its sweet of guys to do it.he was exicted and said ok, but just that he needed help.and of course mer mer said he would teach fei.
that day, we had changi chicken chop noodles. i remembered you both having the 'papaya milk" for desert and telling me i should drink to booast my breast. =)
right after eating hl send me to tp. i got my last glance at mer who was sleeping beside me before i left.
many memories with you both. really. esp these few months.
the time when mer mer and i were talking. i rememeber you tellin me "i cant believe our group sized down to like this, unbelievable"
the time when mer mer always call me "JOYCE, JOYCE JOYCE"
the time when i sat beside fei fei squeezing his neh neh
the time when i was thrown into the pool 3 times in a row by fei
the times when all stayed up till 5am to play majong
break times on monday was really enjoyable with everyone, from chicken herbal soup to curry chicken at bugis, to changi, to eskimo =)
mer mer i will always remember car squeezing time, when ive got no choice but tp sit on your lap. it will never be forgotten


im glad we manage to celebrate mer's bday =)though we didnt manage to get the pinyata which i kinda regret now
i know you were very pleased on your birthday.the many water bombs =)
you both wanted majong that night. but i rejected. sorry


fei you remember how i kept scolding you for the bruise i had on my knee cap?
as i was chasing you ard the lecture hall, becuase you took my slippers and wasnt really willing to return to me and i had to jump to get it.
thats how i hurt i knee.
now i wish the scar wont go away.

i went through pictures.
thanks for being there for my bday(every year to be exact),
thanks for the chocolate. fei you kept your promise,
thnaks for the earphones, as you all knew i needed one.
thanks for spending time with me at settlers for some stupid games.
all of you know i love to 'por' people to help me to do my project.
you both never fail to help me.
fei i remember the times when you helped me during my c# test.
which got me a D! thanks =)
mer mer. you helped for my recent iadp. and kept saying "you never listen in class one ah?"
yes i dont.
accounts paper was filled with fei's playfulness, which i will never throw away.
remember once during our holiday. we all worked at OG.haha. and there was a night we all went out together to catch a movie. =)
there is so many things that i could talk about you both!
although its suppose to be really sad. but ive decided to take it another way round.
after hearing what mer priest said.
saying that mervin has actually found his new home. his TRUE home.
i wish and i hope he really does.
same goes to fei.

class of EI0601 wont be the same again, i have to admit.
you both brought everyone together, the jokers of the class.
without you both, karkit, zhiyang will be astray.
han leng and i too.
emily and vic too.

i cant imagine staying home another day. NO WAY!

even though yesterday was cal's birthday=( he was home all day, asleep. damn.
but, i bet he had a nice 20th birthday =) doing what he like most. sleeping.
and yes, having a dinner with me eating smelly meat. he simply hates every single thing.
from vege to fruits to seafood (cause its smelly), fish thats smelly, beef(smelly). and what's left?.
luncheon meat, harsh brown, nuggets, fries..... yes kids food.

well, i promised there would be tepannyaki at goodwood and yours would be steamboat ah.

out i go. i want puzzel. haha b.

recently i've been thinking again. to be exact i think about them every single day.
but this time i was actually thinking how greatful i am to have such polymates.

having to hear the news was already bad enough.
thank goodness i had tienboon who was being really nice to come all the way to find me to just let me know what happen, to be there for me. and of course the often question "are you ok?" im gald that i had him. of course not only him, emily was with me while we visited our lovely fei and mer for the last time. if it wasnt for her i would have chicken out and leave the room. defineltly han leng, he even called me just to ask whether im alright. yes, visting him in the hosapital. but the first question was "are you alright?". lastly, my whole class was being really supportive =)) i bet all of you do think about them every now and then.


the bright side is cal's birthday is approaching. being ultra impatient i gave him his present yesterday just so i could see what his reaction would be like. ha!i put it in a NUM paper bag and wrap it with taka's wrapping paper. lying to him it's from NUM. he totally didnt wanna open it. he though it was a singlet -_-" and said he would wear it at home. but of course i got him someting he wanted. and it's the burberry polo =)) lastly, i can't wait for carnivour, i going to have tonns of meat again.

does anyone want tanning? please find me. please.
zouk on friday too =))

last paper =)) done done done =))

the paper kinda suck though, cause i know i made many many many mistake and probably half of the paper was just purely crap. YES, my crap. just as long as i pass. i dont whine like how others do, "AWWW i did this wrong and that wrong".and when their results out its those As, Bs. yes D here =))

so like right before exams i had so much thing to do that i couldnt even find a time to study. and what now? im actually home doing nothing. great day ahead yea?.

oh well, all i can do is talk about the day out with the convertable!! WHEEEE.. i so want that car. i would love love whoever who could get me that car. dad? HA!!

its pretty hard to stay glam in the car, cause your hair are like flying all over the place.

here starts a series of me and sam's love life =)

nor nor actually edited the pictures, i was trying to like put some not edited and some edited but well, after a while it got tired. so yea!.

yes, gotten my seat no. for exam, 171. i was telling others how i was suppose to be 173.

but after today. yes, im actually in seat 171 no matter what. thats cause school is so stupid and idiot to actually leave a seat infront of me, just so i could keep thinking bout mer.
the first half i was practically just looking at the empty seat in front and reminding myself that he is gone. i couldnt even care whether i forget what ive memorised. but its a relief that i wont be taking the next paper with them. at least i dont get to see the empty seat.





dad left yesterday again. this time was much better. cause at least i know i did spend all the time i could with him =)) OHHHH, dad told me something that got me ???????. he was just telling how the government are scared cuase many people are actually leaving sg for good and all. and he added thid behind "LIKE ME, IM NEVER GOING TO COME BACK" WHAT????. my dad is not goign to come back. GREAT!. and that day he was just telling me how my uncle is VERY niao about the car. GREAT NO DAD, NO CAR. licence for fark.





got my chinese new year pic.

at river hongbao / hongbao river ?

my lovely cousins =)

oh yesh, finally ive stolen a few photos to post here =)) yeah!
im hoping for daddy's camera photo though.
but i think its a no way. he's damn slow at sending me photos.

so yesh, valentine's day. it was just a pretty normal day out. just that everywhere is filled with flowers and all. oh whatever, i was never interested in flowers.
but but, im interested in shopping. so cal got no choice (to what i think), but to get me what
wanted. and yesh, i finally gotten my skirt like without any hesitation =)) we didnt do much that day. no movies at all. cause i only wanted to catch PS.iloveyou. which he said is "pai seh, i love you". hiya, he just die also dont wanna watch that show. okay, thats kinda the end.


yesterday was nice =)) had high tea at carousel. they have wide range of food, nice place to sit at. thats all. oh yah, and they have nice kebab and bread and butter thingy.
caught "ps.i love you" YEAH. okay i didnt cry i didnt felt sad!. mayb thats cause i keep comparing the book and the movie. BOOK is so much better please. READ the book instead. tells more about what really happen.





exams on monday. i really wonder whether its because of chinese new year, because too many things happen in class, or is it just plain lazy. ive never felt so slack for an exam before. at least studying soemthing. but hell no. its just opening of my book and watching gossip girls.



taken at cherry=)) chinese new year eve

yes, nor you wanna know what des said?. HAHA. he is actually telling me about some hot girls

carousel!

the seafood area =)

yuqi, i kinda love the day. esp the last part at cine =) i wish i didnt leave for home.

valentine's day

nothing special.

besides having gossip girls, everything has been pretty boring for me.
i just wish exams were over, thats all. the truth, im actually trying my best to study now, cause i know i wont be free on any other day. yes at 2:43am. im studying still, instead of having my beauty sleep.

gossip girls with me =)

OHH Ohh, I FINALLY got a green light from daddy! ive always wanted braces, and the other time i was considering between licences or braces. and now!! daddy says YES! not that i asked him. but he just turn and look at me and said you need to put braces cuase you've got ugly teeth! GREAT=)) daddy has been great man. he wanted to sub a citybank card for me and all.


and oh yah. talking about dad reminds me about car. i cant believe my family at times though. i mean yes i know how much you all wont lend me the car. NOT EVEN ONCE! like seriously, my dad pays for the car and you all dont even lend me. just cuase? IM A GIRL. trust me, if my bro has his damn licence the car will be with him in no time. GREAT. only my dad trust me, makes it even better, he's hardly in singapore. GREATTTTTTTTT.

better not spoil my valentine's day mood.

i still have been chatting alot to others about mer and fei. as usual. mer's gf words were like.............painful?. its like i feel for her and everything, but no one can actually heal the pain she's going through. having her to wish mer happy vday, though he's gone.
and now,
exam hall will be a little differnt. cuase everytime when there's exams. i would always look out for mer, cause he's always sitting right infront of me =)
i want all my memories to be kept here. cause one day, i know, we all know, we'll slowly forget. like how mervin's voice calling " JOYCE JOYCE" is fading. and fei's laughing reply is slowly fading too.

anyway, cheers to my exams. ok i cheers myself.
and yes. hope vday would be good. HOPING. everyday im hoping.

ok, im back here. thats cause Lj seriously suck my ass.

mayb im a user-friendly type

oh well, chinese new year!! boo to this year. doesnt even feel like chinese new year please!! ive got a feeling its because of my age! im gettign older and everything is boring!
reunion dinner was the best i guess, cause its just plain eating and eating.

first day of new year was pretty quiet.hmmm, just BORING LAH.
the only best part was driving alone to pick HL up from MOS. yes you club i drive -_-"
but at first i was pretty scared to drive alone, due to the many memories i had with mer and fei in the car. but after a while i felt that they were actually guiding me instead =))

mer and fei, although everything seems to be back to normal, thinking that you all are just absent from school and blah blah.
the memories of me witnessing you both being cremnated, also seems to be disappearing.
the only thing i kept thinking of was mer's smilng photo cause you seem very happpy =))
well, tmr we're going to database teacher's house, i hope you both will be there.

okok, back to where i was. when over to yuqi's place for gambling session with mingshen, daryl, and the list goes on. i won 10 bucks that day! great one, but i felt bad losing xaiver's money. of course special credit to my special bangle. they claim.

caught ah long pte ltd yesterday. please watch!. i think its hella funny if you like you know, those hokkien singapore show. after town, i headed over to find nor, verrill, josh and jovena. caught good luck chuck, nice =))
nor's place next, but i was a little too tired. so i went home, thnaks to hl.

today long day please!!. i drove all day today, makes it even longer, yes driving is tiring!. went visiting as usual. den after which dad brought me and cousins to river hongbao. OK dont go. NOTHING TO DO ONE!. and seriously, i cant park car for nuts! evn my ah ma makes fun of me.

something new =)) i hope it works =))))