jus arrive in school not long ago!.


*i tink im too stressed up!.this mornin something happen!.made me feel so uneasy!.i feel so sorry!.i hardly had enough sleep.im exhuasted! haiz!.evn when i was on the way to school i could evn missed my stop when im totally awake!didn't evn bring my admin card!i needa good rest!!.hope today's shopping would help me ease my mind!.anyway nona was making fun of me that i should attend my school workshop on BGR!.thanks!!but i believe all this will soon be over!.


*not goin to sg idol today gave my tickets to nona!.so calvin! i wont see idols!k im tired hope im able to sleep in class!signin out!


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im home!.ok i needa shit!

*ok don with my shitting! today was a bad day for me! i missed school again.damn! i cant skip anymore wednesday classes and i jus did today!.thanks to myself!!i made my alarm clock instead of 630am i put it as 630pm!.die lahhh!!.suppose to meet paulene at 130 today but again i overslept.so met her at 230 instead.for today we shopped at marina sq!i bought 1 shorts and i shirt!.yeppp..shirt for school!.and shorts for outting!.heee!!.i wanted to buy more but tot of buying tmr instead lorr.yepp!!.today was suppose to do my nails with sylvia.but realise i got test to study today!! so skip it anyway sylvia the pig was sleepiin also!.realising i have a test tmr makes me freakin moody!!..i DON WANNA STUDY!!!!.hate it!!.freaking books!.


jus now my brother called!.askin if i wanted to go watch singapore idol tmr!.so i said okay!!.but calvin told me his past story!.well im not like that!!.i watch le i go home striaght!!.heee!!!


*ohi haven start bout andri touchin down in singapore!!.yes!he came yesterday!!and called me!.at first he was ok but after that he started to be sacastic!>damn it lorr!!.when he said all those words really made me sad!.and he evn said that he asked his mum to make PR for him jus because of me!.that totallly made me feel guilty!.on the other hand!calvin i feel so bad for him!.but i promised that i will tell andri bout our relationship soon!.i will!.i seriously did not expect all this to happen!.hai!!!.he evn ask me to watch a movie iwth him tmr!>guess im not free!.k gonna start mugging le!!.and do homework!.forgot got homework to do!.yepp


pictures taken today!










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in school library!


*having useless free period right now!.and nyp's library is filled with a million of people.everyone is like here to study!!>.damn!.i haven done my web design assignment, or C# project!.im seriously a slack.during math class i evn bought out my lychee from home and ate it in class!.and it attached lots of ants!.gross!.lychee was suppose to be my lunch so that i wont eat anything!.but i failed as usual.


BORING BORING BORING!!!


2 classmate in front of me, 1 dunnodoin what with his com another one talkin on the phone!.and where's stan!?.at home!.hopeless.i seriously give up on him.give him wake up call everyday also no use one!.he still don come!.anyway i was sayin my brother gave me 50.i suspect that the 50 is my mother give me one!.must go ask my mama!but my brother say wanna buy shoe for me if yesterday match he won but lost.so no shoes for me :( ok lah.i really duno what else to say alreadyy..jus boring boring.mayb goin to watch dvd now!darn!




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ok.brother just left my room with a great sigh*.damn! eleanor told me world cup bring families together!.well it had for me!.as my brother actually gave me money!.in my whole entire life i tink this is the first time my brother ever gave me money.which made me really happy!!.and now this match jus made him lose money!.arghhh!!..damn it!!.well i hope he will not feel that stressed up!.


*so school reopen today.and i actually went for Cmath class.i wanted to improve on my studies!but i realise it was too far for me to ever catch up!.*regretsss* well.so school was normal!.got our overall Internet Computing results!.and i got a 79marks!.great!.how i wish my math, DE and C# would hav the same marks!.so aft school sylvia was bored so i met her at bishan!.bought alot of stupid things!.i kinda spend money anyhow!!.damnnn!!.cant do that!.we ate at thai express!.nah i should say i ate at thai express but sylvia bought food over from long john!.haha!.den at ard 9 plus sam chua came over to meet us!.so we hang ard at coffee bean!.chatted and laugh alot!!.heee!!.evn did one stupid thing!>well only 3 of us know lahh!!.cause its really dumb!!.whahahha!!


*taken on 23th June 06












*ok its late now!and my calvin is asleep?.well i dunno.but should be lah!.if not means flirting!!>heeeeee!!!!.i wanna sleep soon leee!!.yepp.ZzZZZzzzZZ.tmr will be a long day for me in school.damn!!.


*wednesday goin out with paulene and at night goin out with onn onn and nadia!.

high high*.feeling a bit high now!.my drinking level really drop man!.damn so today in the day wen out wit paulene for some shopping.i found back the zara shorts that i liked!.i reserve it!.but neva buy! :p instead bought some stupid shirt that cost me like 60 dollars!.arghhh!!im seriously stupid!.heeee!!anyway we shop shop shop.den shop til 630, she went home den i wen to meet sylvia, sam and chirsty!.yeppp.wen to lucky plaza, saw my long lost classmate, mr yong quan!.haha!.its been long since i last saw him lah!.happy to see him, at least i know he's still alive!.heeee!!.aft tt took a bus to marina sq,meet nor nor and ate our dinner den wen to oscar's to drink and watch soccer!.okkkkk.....i totally lost!!..i dunno what soccer is!!i jus sit there, eat cake, chit chat and drink!.ard 11plus me and sylvia wen over to P******(duno how to spell the pub name) to drink, me and her order a 0.5 litre drink!.not long!! nor nor called and tell me the match finish le!.and guess what i drank the whole bloody beer in jus 5 mins!!.i was bloated!.terrible feeling lahh!!ya so my thai food and steamboat became food court and chicken rice!.sucks!.okok!.tired now!.wanna go sleep sleep!.tmr goin to watch movie with my one and only!.


*anyway ive gain weight and am seriously paranoid bout my weight!.in my whole life how often oe was i ever worried bout my weight!.i seriously need to watch my diet!.im so afriad lahh!.i don wanna be heavy!.GOODNESS!!.but probably i deserve it.am worried bout my weight but am drinking beer eatin cheese cake, white chocolate cake and all tha fattering food!!damn!


pictures taken just now with sylvia and nor nor!!:

kuey kuey!.i want more kuey kuey!.haha!.in love with all the kueys i jus bought!.hee!! well ask me whyy im home?.today was suppose to go out with onn onn and nadia!.plans changed!onn onn is sick!.so now, im plannless!.whahhaa.i hav no where to go!.so jus stay home and enjoy my kuey kuey!


*well see photos i took yesterday wen im bored!!!.













*yesterday stayed at papa's house the whole day!.that was for me to study!.ok i did study abit.not alot i would say!.haha!.so a bit useless!.haha!.met my one and only at night!.he made me suffer though!!!.i demanded him to return home right aft his work so that at night can have dinner with me!.he said ok!.butttt.......he wen to eat with his friend!.and made me starve at home till 12 plus!!.EVIL EVIL!.aft tt sleep!.all he does is just sleep sleep sleep ZzzZZzZZ~~and disturb me!.and he found a new way to agitate me!!.i'll get back at him one day!.hmmm its kinda sad that he is always working and studying and seldom have the time for me!.but what to do!.at least i understand!!.



on 20th June



okay.20th june nona's birthday went out with her and han leng!.welllll.mr lim yong quan was suppose to join us!.but thanks lahhh!!.he fell asleep!.i seriously think he is hopeless.gonna kicked his butt when i see him in sch on monday!ok so 3 of us!hang ard at orchard!.HAPPY BIRTHDAY NONA!.i felt that he became wiser!.oh no!!.and look at me.im still as naughty as ever!i bet evn aft i turn 18 i'll still be the same!.heee!!.we did not really do much that day!.but hope she had fun!.we ate thai food at paragon and desert at NYDC!.man my cake was delicious!.heeee!!aft that me and nona took bus 14 home with calv's friend!.

*tmr goin to have thai food with paulene and clair and at night goin to have steamboat with nor nor sam and sylvia!
*sat watchin movie with calv!
*sun suffer from depression as there will sch the next day!!ARGHHH!!SO SOON!!!

jus bathe and packed my room!!.shoikness!.


brother my gave me my MOS cheque!!..i got $1265!.i have money again!.heeee!!.smiling all the wayy!!.


*ok its 1200!!!..happy birthday to 2 person!!..happy birthday to andri and malinda!!.ohhh everyone's birthday is like ard the corner!.and mine still longgg!!.













*mich and me at mac, and thats us at concert!.heee!!


*well haven been blogging as usual, thats cause hardly home or free.these few days have been with calvin most of my time!!.yeppp.yesterday was out with michelle eddie and pris to singapore soka association!!watch some concert!.okay ppl we 4 got high!.well not high due to the concert but jus self high!.we'll dancing, screamin, shouting.okay jus making a fool of ourself thats it!.but we enjoy it!.haha!.aft that was with calvin! and damn we were playing with each other by biting!! and we bit each other!.he had like obvious love bites lahh.mine was like not that obvious!.heee!!.when we were together in the day it was pretty funny.ii kinda don wanna stand near hiim.whahha.cause see his neck den see my neck.ohhhh no!!.what will ppl think mannn!!.hee but now i kiinda regret playin with him.cause his boss is angry with him!.damn i feel real bad!!.i wont dare to play anymore!.and ii found out that calvinn is really evil.he love seein me get tortured and while torturing me he would laugh happily lahh!!.haha!!what a person!.but i still enjoy being with him!.being with him makes me feel happy and i feel like a lil' young girl with him!!.i hope i could like see him day and night!.hmmmm come to tink of it lata i'll be sick of his face..haha!!.kidding!.










*pictures taken on saturday!.yup.its kriti eliza and me!

*okay..sleepyyy...tired.but goin to cycle to central to draw money for my brother.yepp.so gotta go now!.calv sleep well :)

boredness!i actually stay home on a saturday.and doin nothing!.i have to study but i cant bring myself to.all i did today was play comouter and switchin my tv channels.its BORING!!.ard 6 plus gonna meet eliza and her xing!.haha!.meetin calvin aft his work!.yepp



*anyway was jus chatting to michelle online.talkin bout her birthday party!welll none of us change to what i tink. 5 of us live our whole sec sch life together, having fun together!.but deep down each and everyone hates 1 person!.this one don like tt one, that one don like this one!.and suprisingly im also one of the childish one!.heee!!well thats cause i jus cant stand her!!she should know who!heee!!the one with jotter book with her all day to record my every move!.its very disappointin for me to say this as i do enjoy everyone's company!.but yet ive tried my best to tink on the bright side and everytime i hear ppl sayin this to me sayin that to me!.so i hate her!.heeee!!.michelle birthday party?ya stayin over her house!!.well as ive said not 5 of us are invited!!! 1 is not!.hahha.well i was thinkin in my heart bout my birthday i wont invite who den i realise by the time my birthday comes, clair would be gone, mayb paulene as well.so saddd yeahhhh..


*so me and mich goin to meet up tmr at tamp mac.she wants to study!.that jus brings me back to the past when i used to stay in tamp, me and her would always go to tamp mac to study!.and she said that i was always studyin and she was always eating that whyy her result was like tt.haha!.ya when i stayed in tamp, me and her take out mornin sch bus together!.im always the one chopping the back seat cause its the best seat.and tellling her not to share seats with other girl!.heee!.and when 2 new korean girls join the sch bus, they were irritating singing some stupid korean song, i'll be tellin them to shut up!.mich would jus laugh!.the girls jus gave some stupid look and i'll jus keep irritating them!.haha.still got more!.in bus me and mich would be the noisy one!making fun of nicholas and his wealth!.haha!i had nick names for most of my sch bus mates!.haha!!.oh and i remeber something, i always had lunch box in my sch bag!haha my papa would pack some noddles or bread for me to sch!.im a SMALL GIRL!.sec 4 still carryin lunch box!.haha!.i remebr i evn sell my food for 10 dollars!.to sec 2 boy!.whahhahhaa!! he bought it willingly ok!.haha!.i really miss sec sch.bullying the boys in my class. having conflicts with them!.5 of us and teh boys soccer match!.the girls won!.heeee!!.fun fun fun!! miss all those times!.and times that i would be called out, out of no where, teacher bringing me to a talking area telling me and my 4 friends issue!.and sayin that im the head of the gang!GANG!?!?!.for the past 4 years ive always had the stupid thing bout teacher tinking that i lead my friends to do bad things! well its clear that im no gang head or shit and jus lead them to fun!.and finally sec 4 form teacher talked to me, again it was bout my gang sayin that i hav to make them study!!.i was like okok i will try!.but sadly i did not help any of them.some i tried but no results from them.and mayb becuase of that everyone is leavin to some places!.and me stuck in poly!.

ok.showered!! feel so goood!!

*today came back from calvin's chatlet.damn i did not bathe for like 1 and a half day! *dirty*. so me and calvin went there on wed.i was late! he punished me by asking me to throw away his chewing gum wrapper!.so when we arrive, outside the door, we could hear lots of music and shouting it was that bad till no one ans the door!.haha.when i got in *shocked*. it was all dark and smoky! look jus like a club to me.haha!.but all i did was hang ard the sofa.evn fell asleep with calvin.the whole day i was jus sleeping..heee!.the next day was hilarious!!!!.it was early when calvin and his friends started drinking.and 1 of them kinda got drank, well he started throwing pizza ard and hitting the pizza boxes.its really funny lahhh.lucky aft a while he fell asleep, calvin also.aft calvin woke up he asked his friend to sleep on the bed instead of the floor.and like a min aft he woke him up he puke!!.*gross* .evn when its time for cleanin,clavin's fren could also find things to play with while cleanin.haha!.they are funny.and aft that all i could remeber is juz sleeping!.heee!!.and i like it cause i spend all while entire day with calvin it jus feels so good.


*jus now when to clair's house to watch she's the man!.yeppp..nice showw!.aft watchin 3 of us played monopoly!.haha.stupid game!

paulene and i on the way to KL




i shall continue bout my trip!

*day 2
got up early, ate our breakfast!.den me and paulene went alone to shop!first both of us went to KLCC! whooooo!! nice place!! over there i bought 1 zara shirt and 1 zara skirt.there was one zara shorts that i totally loveee!! but....i did not wanna spend all my money at zara!.so i had to leave ittt!! *weep*.haha but u dunno what i did to the shorts!!!.hahha only paulene knowss..haha!!.so both of us kinda went crazy!!.i bought necklase and pens from there tooo!!.after tt both of us headed to mid valley MEGA mall.ok.thats when i went bankrupt!!!.heeee!.over there i bought another zara shirt!.come to tink of it i rather buy the shorts that i likeddd!!.heee!.whaoooo that mall was BIG..i liked so many things there but ran outta cash.damn itt!!.so we shopped 4 hours in that mall den took a cab to BB plaza!.at BB plaza we both had our dinner!.paulene ate something really nice.like satay chicken with rice balls! delicious!!!.but aft eating all the shops close alreadyyyyy!!!.damnnnn..so we walk back to our hotel.wanted to swim!but how we know he pool close at 830pm lahhh!!.den we wanted to snecked in the pool.but was caught!.heeee!!so hang ard at ppl rooms den went to bedd!!

*day 3
got up early ate breakfast den run run run for last min shopping!!!...i spend every single cent!.heee!!and wen we're bout to get to leave was taking the lift down tothe lobby!.oh my goodness CHINA ATTACK!!.there were like 14 buses of china ppl.and how unlucky!.when we're leaving they were entering..so when we're bout to walk out of the lift.these CHINa ppl jus push their way through!!.like how am i supose to get out lahh...so irritaing lorrr!!.anyway the bus that we were comin back with has TV!.a bit pissed lahh..i was watchin shopaholic on the way back den the show kanna cut off.cause reach malaysia immigration leee!!..saddd lahh..anyway got lotsa photos.but currently lost my camera.i have no idea where i put it!.when i find it.i'll load it upp!!.gottta get readddy sooon.need to go for calvin's chalet!!

*it was suppose to be a pic with all the soccer stuff but thanks to paulene, she took this!






IM BACK!!. im back from KL.

well KL was amazing!. i had absolute fun! SHOPPING was just about it!. okay let me start with the first day!.

*first day
stopped at yong pang?.for some eating and toilet break.well for me and paulene.toilet there is famous to us!.cause we spotted to rolls of shit in the toilet!i tink it looks like hot dog!.heeee!!.well so everything was pretty a mess when we got there.we only left our hotel at about 5pm.which means half a day gone.so we had our dinner at some place near by our hotel (ISTANA HOTEL) .wen we're bout to finish frankie was feeling really unwell he started to sweat and stuff.which so looks like me when im about to faint.so i kinda know how he feels.which is pretty bad!.so we looked aft him till a guy which me and paulene please gave frankie a lift back to the hotel.*he slept in the hotel*so the rest of us when shoppin!.me and pauele juz went ard by out own i bought underwear for myself!fm topshop.haha.aft tt we went to chinatown!.nice shoppin there.bought dvds and keychain from there.but when i was at chinatown i was really tired.so got back to the hotel had my hot bathe and ZzzzZzzZZ.



*continue tmr . tired* mayb tts cause wen im in KL.i sleep at like 11?hahha..early!

*in class - C# class!

yesterday went papa house to stay again.ya cause i bought my 2 brats out yesterday to watch over the hedge!.it was such a short movie.i tink the shortest cartoon ive ever watch.movie starts at 405 ans ended like 520?so fast lorrr!!.but it was funny.aft the movies i was really tired.so went back to my ah ma house.yeah took bus 518 back.totally sleepin in the bus!!.heee!had my ah ma's dinner which is still the best!slack a while there till my uncle called say wanna stay in my dad's house cause quarrel with my aunt.BUT HE NEVA TURN UP! -_-" .ard 9 send my lil cousins home!den i go home myself!on my way home, i took bus 28 back and the bus now turns into tampines mart there.my old home!out of a sudden i so wanted to go back to the life i use to have.the life where the word family exist!.alt its not a big impact for me.but i still like living there!and all my childhood memories are there!!damn! life is like this.i was given this life!anyway internet at dad's house really sucks!!so i gave up searchin for network and went to bed early!.as ie got to meet malinda at 645.so i woke up at 530am!!HORROR!!.she was late lahhh!!late late!!so i went first i met her at tamp central there lah.so we took 72 hafiz was also there.3 of us pratically jus sleep on the bus all the way to school.

*well i would repeat this bloody module if i fail but am still not studyin for it! cant stand my attitude towards studies now!


*ya aft schhol or shall i say aft this class gotta go home, hope i could rest a while den meet paulene.its her birthday today!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.but today only me and clair celebratin with her.all the party plans were cancelleddd coz of KL's trip!


*kk.im goin to get a real scolding from my aunt neva off the tv and turn off the water at dad's place!.

*Library*

am suppose to study excell now!.but kinda no mood to do so!.so decided to blog.ok so talk bout my school these few days im getting outa hand! always not able to wake up and end up being late!and when i get into trouble i have to act very good!hate it!.and my results are not improving got a F- for C#.everyone who got this marks look so worried but i don feel a single thing!i seriously need to improve on myself.and because of me having a F- got to go for conselling!!.i did not evn get an F.i got a F- which is below 40.damn!.having an excell text lata on kinda hope i'll do alright!!.



today calvin is gonna do his tattoo.wonder how it would ever look like aft having tt tattoo probably look reallly scary.and loook very bad boy!.which he already looks like one!.*hope u regret!*.well some say its art!but i prefer the idea of gettin a dawing block and drawing on it instead of making a scar forever on yourself.haha.but probably i don understand!heee!!well i only allow myself to be poke in the tongue!and evn if i don like it all i need ta do is tk that thing out and its gone!heee!!



*tmr might bring lil brats out to watch over the hedge cause they keep buggin me! and i neva reply their sms.haha
*thur - out with paulene and clair.watching she's the man
*friday im free
*sat goin out with friends to eat VERY nice lunch which is to celebrate paulene's birthday!
*sun im free
*monday goin out with mich!


*ok the pimple im having is really getting huge!i tink this is the biggest pimple i ever had!!its HUGE!haha

06-06-06 what a nice date!. happens only once a while!yeahhh.

*10:12PM

goin to KL on saturday and will be coming back on monday!yeah mama is payin for me!!heee!!will be doin lots of shopping!!it would be fun!but i'll miss someone badly!

*feeling high*.



*hope this is the feeling i want*.

ok. i juz did the stupidest thing.i felt cold,wanted to turn the air con off.and i took my scv remote control and press the volume button.haha!im so blurr!!

so im back home early today!today went to meet nor nor and her many friends!.studies at hougang mac today!yep.saw my 2 lil cousins today.dunno whyy i miss them, miss my auntie as well.although both of them are the most naughty one i still miss them!haha.will go their house soon!so as usual i spotted javian instead of jarred.haha.coz javian is fat fat!!.heee!!.

aft studyin ard 8?cant relle remember.went to eat punggol nasi lemak!but only i ate it eleanor and the other guys dun wanna eat it lor.what a waste!but have to queue lah.longgg queue!.yeah.while eating my phone rang den i ans YA. YA. and YA. again.den one of tthem started laughing and everybody laugh.hiya.no one will understand the joke only 5 of us!.haha!


well.im stuck learning my html.kinda stop studying already.cause i dunno how to do le.give up!tmr den ask my classmates!


see pictures taken yesterday with my cousins!:











pictures taken on steamboat day!:

eating ba zhang now.so full.but my ah ma say must eat by today if not spoil.haha!.

*ok andri juz reply my msg.and guess what my heart melt again.i dunno whyy i cant do what i wanna do!.i really cant.i need time!

ok today got up and wen to ah ma house brought my 2 brats out today.tooo tampines mall-crowded!!!damn they are also another irritating one!keep quarrelling wih each other!it was jus so terrible!bought them to walk ard, play and eat!.was suppose to watch over the hedge!but tix was too expensive!.yeahh!.

*ok 12.32 i jus bring up the breaking up issue to andri.i wonder what he would reply.blog lata

just bathe finish!feel so much beta!.well thursday was a stupid day for me, i found out i got debar from english class!mother have to write a letter to plead.i hope im given a other chance man.i don wanna study alone!.tt day we had SIT R US meetin i skipped it.and guess what?my mentor found out!aa...somebody help me sign my attendance whn im not evn there!!damn it!all this shit is happening!!scared to go to school on monday :( well so aft sch wen town with malinda and han leng.until 7 plus i wen all the way to sim lim to met my ah ma, auntie and cousins!got my dad's key and left to orchard to meet calvin!yeah wen to kopitam again.aft tt wen home!i went back to tampines!!and calvin walked me home!!heee!!so wen i got back, at the doorstep i saw cat shit! hmmp!dunno what to do with it lah..juz cross over it.haha!den suddenly i missed the days when papa cook for me to eat lah!!fridge always got food for me one.and my favour egg plant.den while home was msging calvin den he was willing to accompany me!so aft he bathe which was very long.he met me at my house downstairs, and we went to makan!.aft tt he came over to my place!sat at my living room playing a very boring laptop!.and i failed with my biore blackheads thingy.i help calvin to do it but it failed!!no blackheads at all on the sticker thingy.mayb its the problem with his nose!heee!!so ard 5 plus kinda got tired.so i wanted to sleep and he went back home!poor him.stay out so late and somemore got work early the next day.yeahh.den i went to bed and had t wake up at 9 cause gotta accompany my grandpa to hospital for his medical check up.yeahhh!so wen we were there sharmine school called said her fel down.den drove her to meet us also.ate our lunch at e hospital and uncle sam says tt it was a family dinner!!jus tt its in the hospital!.heee!aft all tt crap got home take a nap and met michell,ed,eddie and plus plus plus for steamboat at marina!yeahhh!!kinda enjoy it!!.and this time ed kanna disturb by us until siao!. haha.wen home ard 1030.met clavin wen to serangoon and home!


*now goinn to bed soon!yepp tmr goin to auntie brenda's house.probably cycle there.exercise a bit!