i had the most amazing 3 days ever.
i mean seriously. what's even better, is having friends who like what you do as well.
=)=)=)=)

roller blading for 3days straight.

fell yesterday, but am really happy i did. cause its been long since i fall.

just suck cause my stupid kneecap hurt.

but, i seriously had the best time ever.

going for more soon. right after my knee heals.

sunday=)

while cleaning birdshit. mich your blog is full of lies. i did help to clean!

tell me i look sexyyy when im driving. "serious look"

Monday=))

they damn cute i tell you. i say turn left they really obey me. in the end have to push the bike back.
Tuesday =)))

thats all now.

hmmmm. im fine. thanks

I miss you…I look and look at my phone and find that there is no call, no message from you. I know I must be strong and find myself once again all strong and solid without having the comfort of your presence.You are my usual light. My fall back. If I lose the world, I have you. This is the feeling I have that I may not so easily tell you… I probably need you the same way you need me. We are each other’s comfort. You make Me feel good because you are honest, you are worthy of love, you fight for me, you hold on to me, you cry for me, you smile for me. I hold you tight in my arms and whisper my strength into your ears and let you know its safe to sleep. I am an immearsureable strength for you where your strength is weak at best. You snuggle so tightly into my chest I am amazed to look down and still find that you are not permanently apart of me. You hold on so tight that you remind me that I AM worth holding on to. Your eyes remind me of mine. I feel we share a history together that connects our future. I feel that If I am blessed enough to be with you further in life then I will be stronger, smarter, better, happy and I will give you the same. I can grow with you, I want to grow with you.2 days without no call or text is killing me.. I feel like you don’t need me anymore, but somewhere my pure soul knows that you do miss me, you want my voice, my body, my presence to calm you down to dance with you.But I am scared because I can feel the possible wind change of time apart, and I’m having a really hard time thinking about you existing apart from my heart and soul. I sense the power of distance. You are so far away, as I am so far away. What shall I do to make this relationship stronger… I don’t know.. I really really don’t think building this relationship is gonna be so easy.. But i know it'll be worth it. I want you, I want you in my life, I want you in my bed, I want you in my arms, I want you in my soul. You are something else, you are quite a unique expression of beauty. I want to do everything I can to hold you in my arms again and feel the beat of your heart next to mine.I am so scared baby… I feel such a distance that I am paralyzed and I feel so insignificant without our souls being able to grow together.wish I knew what you were doing now, but kind of scared to find out… I almost never want to hear from you again because I am scared to find out how un-repairably distant we are… I ache thinking about you losing interest, meaning, purpose in confiding in me…. I wanna cry but I also want you here with me. I want you in my life… Breathing becomes harder to do when these thoughts of increasing distance and bitterness build and fester.I am losing that intimacy we shared so familiarly because I have this itch at the back of my mind that is saying you are "away and glad" and are being intimate with another… I am losing strength.. but even so, I mostly desire your heart and mine snuggling with no one else comparing for even a heart beat.I understand this pull of intimacy because I feel like I have never felt during our relationship.. I feel like we are in such clear terms, Not Together, and my heart yearns for the attention YOU gave me. It’s hard for me to tell when I am flirting because I am soooooo in need of what you gave me that I feel like a drug addict just wanting to fix my problem as easy as possible. But this path is not mine. I want to try my best first to heal our relationship and learn more everyday how to show you I love you. You must know that I love you love you love you. You are my inspiration.I think about you everyday during almost all points of the day. You mean a lot to me. I don’t want to lose you. I wish to better myself so that I may be with you. I crave for your attention and energy. I miss your smile and warm soft body. I want you NOW.. I want you badly.Im tired now after releasing such tension… I love you with all of my body mind soul.

i read this from someone's LJ, and it totally touched my heart. it did, it did. maybe cause i feel some sort this way too.

i cant wait for my exams to be over, though i know i will do very badly and regret BADLY. but its just beyond my control right now, what can i do when i don't even feel like flipping my book, or even just sitting up. precisely, i can't do anything.

ok heck, anyway, school's ending and yes.

i was suppose to chop off my hair today my i chicken feet out. cuase everyone was like no no no, you would regret and yes i didnt. but instead DIY my own fringe. haha, my same old stupid straight hair cut =)) i cut for pris as well. photos here you go.

kay, i seriously hate this photo, but i just wanted to show how lame i was. and how my hair look like before i cut it.

there i go=)) pris say i look like a CHIJ WANNABE. my foot.

pris can't stop laughing at this photo, i look normal what. just the funny eye and lip and nose and fat face.

goodnight. i had the best sleep yesterday, cause i force myself up. meaning i didnt had those sleepless nights. instead i wanted more sleep.

FYP first for me. i wish i had more with me.
i know my FYP will be such a bore.
please appeal=))
though majority is with me, but the one i can talk to is not.
is the world reallly against me?
my bad year, i lost way too much things.
suddenly, im not even excited for my birthday

can't wait to get away.
already planning.

i never expect to feel this way.
worse than anything i could ever imagine.

maybe its because i received it with a big blow, without any warning.

worn out, torn down. but i can't do anything.
feeling really tired, but i fear to sleep.

omg, tell me this picture is damn nice!.

i think its damn pretty lah,damn nice colour lah. totally fell in love with this photo.

anyway, ry took this shot, to think i actually underestimate his photography skills.

god, i rather die.

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maggie mee day =) and im really filled.
i think i really eat too much, like non-stop =))

well, another week of school and yes, i know school is ending like real soon.

in 3 weeks.

anyhows, i'm going prawning at 12 later on, hopefully not that boring as usual.

going over to celebrate emily's bday!

and oh yes, going to skip school tomorrow.

freedom for a day=))

not forgetting, yesterday was edwin NG's birthday.

awesome bbq food. stuff like mad.

plus immature fun with honey, egg, cake, water and coke.

i was the innocent party though, conclusion: i am stupid.

photos will be uploaded when nor sends it to me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUN MOOOOO.



oh, you see!! jackie is being unfaithful to fiona!. looking at my ass and wanting to touch it








group photos.




sunday, was the last day fun for pussy and mich.
ha!all start school.
anyway, i was being nice to ask mich out, knowing she was damn bored at home.
shopped, eat, chatted.
and yes, dinner at east coast lagoon, i think best dinner so far.
better than the other time we went.
the wind was much better and food was amazing.
i do hope for more lah seriously.






very long ago pic from mich surpise birthday thing.


jocelyn, working real hard to produce mich's bday present.

WIP!! i put in all my heart to do this!


mich's 20th birthday!

okay, den pris and i were god damn bored, we waited for 3 hours(repeated) and of course we snap away to kill our time. DAMN HOT OKAY! try sitting outside someone's place! you will lose weight i tell you.
hahah what tiger and dragon? god, i forgot! haha. BOREDNESS/

my signature pose. i don't know whyy either but when i look through all my photos, i realised i do this ugly pose eveytime.

there i go again!!

liting all the candles up, it writes " MICH" toobad, she didnt get to see it at all!.SERVE YOU RIGHT LAH, NO HEART BITCH. I WILL BURN YOUR HOUSE DOWN NEXT TIME AH. NONO!! NO MORE SURPRISES. WASTE MY BLOODY TIME ONLY. STUPID MICHELLE.

and finalllyyyyy, us!

east coast night=) lovely//////

i look like i'm screaming everything out. and pris, she looks like she just can't handle anything and has gone mad.


look at our hands, wtf?
ending it here, watch tv, have snack, go central buy food for pasta, and chips......prawning later.

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just got back from simpang instead, no prawning, but alright cause we're having a make up dinner on monday =))

anyway, i just wanted to say, i cant wait for mer&fei's hearing tomorrow. which is just a few hours away.

i reallly can't wait.

i mean after knowing that dave got sentance to 9 years in jail, plus canning.

and yet, he didnt harm anyone. ok yes, he had the intention to.

but still didn't kill anyone what. and he is sentance to 9 years!!!!

what about mer&fei? they are gone!

too bad to the driver, i hate him to death and i do wish that he will be sentance to like 10 years of jail and yes, canning! ON THE HEAD.

which i know it won't happen!!!!!! BUT WHYY!! 2 deaths!! 2!!!!

so unfair, haven't you thought how much he has taken away from us?

from their families, 2 very good son.

from friends, shelter, fun, love

there are way too many.

like how i would think, mer&fei always try not to get debar from school and all. but what's the point now? what?. nothing.

i really think its damn unfair if he had a light sentance.

so what if he is a young boy with no criminal record

so is my friends, both doing well in school and all.

hiya, just freaking jail him for 10 years man.

angers gone

i have lovely egg tart for tomorrow, yum!

no school, i bought ingredient for pasta too =))

watch tv now!.

not sleeping early. night.