i'm sorry,
i hope irene doesnt see this though. but i read her blog, its somthing i go through as well. Graduation. yes i do have my graduation. she wrote about how her class had chalet and everyone started their bonding from there. i didn't evev have a chance to read on, tears just roll down like mad!. how is it to feel when you graduate with your whole class, a class we spend together for 3 years, the fact that not all would be present. agree, some repeat, some drop out but some are not even present in earth. this is getting lame, how can a class get into such state, to the extend we dont even organize chalet, meet up whatever cause it just reminds us of the unfortunate. i wish i had stand up more for them instead, make the mf feel fucking remorseful about killing someone and fuck the fact about unintentional. graduation sucks i must say though i admit my class was fun, but it suck. no one even contact each other. goodbye polymates.

i'm home after a jog and i'm inserting food into my mouth already!

and its chocolates! easter chocolate from a sweetheart.

oh yah, this is my first ever easter day present kay!

anyway, billard room today for dindin, guess after today's meal i concluded they don't serve nice buffets at all. it has to be the ambiance that i fancy all along. the stupid filipino cheat 15 bucks outta me, serve me fuji water i ask water not fuji water!. ohoh i hope it was something you like. i miss the bread and butter pudding now =(((

graduation day is coming soon, can't wait actually. i rented my graduation gown, and i finally decided on size S! its took me damn long to decide kay! cause it state : S = 151cm - 161cm, M= 162cm - 171cm. M size fits 171cm humans! i don't wanna look funny in those! i wanna look normal not that baggy, just scared it become like a bit too short. HACK!

night peeps.

sammie's bday pic

i carried this around town!

failure! wanted to make it look like as though i was flewn away by the balloons

look ay sammie's car, its full of love

loves

sweet =)) see the tattoo, not the eye bags, not the face. nothing! just the tattoo!



well exercised today, everyone was extremely worn out. i'm satisfied as well, i love my blades to the max and of course the feeling of flying with it. so ohoh, learn well!

not forgetting how we went zouk on friday and left soon after for club nana ( i swore not to go there! and there i am again!) but, i have to say this time round was quite amazing i was surprisingly attached to their performance, butt fact after was quite a failure. no worries mainey =))

tomorrow its dinner at billard room if nothing goes wrong and i'm able to have a table!

night peeps, i'm exhuated!

while doing it, my thoughts would probably be would my mouth explode? tongue stud, braces and tattoo! ought to!

good bounding session i had with cousin.
crazy-est thing i did would probably be, must be, has got to be.....
drinking up the slimming tea.
before heading to bed i was really afraid i would faint while shitting, cause that happened before kay! and my cousin was saying how bad it hurts and how you would see stars!
and i don't like seeing stars!

well, it wasn't that bad! i bomb the freaking toilet but the pain was short!.
conclusion i'll never wanna take that again.
i was probably outta my mind.

i want cruise cruise!! please say there's slot! or whatever i'm waiting for!
it would be a make up for not being able to go hongkong and thailand!
and genting!! please, all my babies go =))

i have this side of me which is very itchy, like the young part of me is back again, i wanna do something rebellious. i wanna see someone suffer!(omg, evil thoughts). kay no i'm smacking my damn ass thoughts out of my head. gone.

pris i want my tattoo pictures!!! READ THIS AND SEND ME!

mum disagrees on hong kong trip with GUYS again!
hate it!

so, new plans! genting trip which of course i hope it's a success!
but den again, its not a shopping place.
i hate it!

tried GV gold class, again i'll say i won't pay 28 bucks for a freaking movie tickets.
the few differences would probably be the extreme cold air-con with free blanket, the damn comfy chair (useless!!!you tend to freaking fall asleep), and the limited amount of people in the cinema.
then again, the company was most important and it was great=))

kayy, i think i'm losing my stamina already, no kick to sleep at 6am anymore.
night peeps.
GENTING BABIES! HONGKONG BABIES! TAIWAN BABIES &&& THAILAND BABIES!!

inked.
contented.

its 5.42am i really wanna sleep.
but i was suppose to blog and if i don't, i don't think i'll have the time any sooner.

and i began to think about weird stuff.
like why gun is even allow in US and so on.
like a normal human doesn't need a gun., what can they do with it?
yea kill people!, and now there's so many gunman killing any random people.
i don't know.
i think i'm talking rubbish.

someone said to me today that its hard to love me.
i thought quite a bit, and i couldn't figure out why
i thought i was easy to love.

maybe it's time for me to learn how to say no.
and after that it's time for me to learn how not to be soft hearted.
i got to get my points right.
i need rest, a big rest where i don't need to think.
i really need some rest.

and lastly, i'm clueless about you, your intention.
you go as you like and come as you like.
am i left to die till you return and decides its good to stay friends.

baby, kill me.

right about my endless problematic life i had.
right after i decide to end the problem i previously had
another just decides to come to just RUIN my mood, its so difficult to breathe right now.

i wish you knew my sincerity,
i wish you would have picture things another way round.
i wish you know my true intentions were.
of course i wish all these won't happening.

fuck im totally speachless towards this whole matter.
i have no say.
all i can do is WISH things would get better.
FRIENDSHIP is important to me.

before i start another day tonight.
i shall just blog about my horrid night.

the night was mellow,hoping for a little kick.
the kick was fast!, like how pris state.
it started as a joke, and we were really high about it.
gave ourselves random names and all

the night ended and we became the joke.
i killed a friendship with the nicest guy.
i've learnt my lesson.

newton, zouk, town.