first and foremost i'm really struggling to stay awake , i NEED to watch my "the seventh day" tvb drama, ok i know i watched it before but i'm still mad about it.

can't believe im gonna say bye to 2009 tmr, i think the age thing is killing me i swear. anyhows 2009 has been a great year, to me at least. i finally graduated from NYP even after failing and being a full-time floater for 2 years? NYP has been great, i made some close friends like em, sl, hl, tb though i never thought i would. i was a floater after the first sem, naturally i was drifted away from everyone. lucky enough i was back on track in year 3, things got a bit better but what matters is the friendship after poly. although its just a handful of them, i'm already contented.

what about relationship? ups and downs, AND again ups and downs. i've been in and out of many different relationships, but i guess the one that cause the greatest impact would have to be ben and charlie (i think this would be interesting). ben and i had a really rough one together, it was either me or him. well, if i were to say out everything sure lack of sleep. what's the conclusion is i will NEVER EVER like him or get back with him. so i'm actually hoping that everyone would not go around assuming that we're back to square 1 and of course stop being paranoid. it's such a 1990s thing.
as for charlie, i always grin to myself whenever i think about the process of us getting to know each other. i still remember how i was afraid you would be like all the failed lovers i had in the past, and always preventing the wrong moves. after a good whole 2 months, (ok la not say very good, but still passable) you've really been a great boyf to me. mega spoil me every single time, which is not good, as i get pissed whenever i don't get things the way i want it to be. like recently. but you always know how to make it better, by appearing at my window at 7am?, dumping your friends for me, just making it better. like today(31 dec), we went blading and i had a great fall,